Day Four of Fast

Well, I thought I would post another blog. I have done well on the fast and am now in the middle of day four. I am not fasting everything, but I am being very restricted. For the first three days it seemed a little hard. I felt somewhat tired and week, but today for some reason, I feel sort of rejuvenated. I got up this morning feel quite well. I was so tired the last few days that I went to bed without even eating.

I need to look at my word more though and truly concentrate on feeling the power of God in my life. I so want to grow closer to Him and be able to fully rely on His power to heal me of everything that taints my life right now. I also am hoping that during this fast, God will give me the ability to forgive my ex-husband. Now don't get me wrong, I am over him, but his evil ways still get me riled up every now and again. I do not like the way it leaves me feeling. I figure if I can learn to forgive him then my life will flow much better.

Right now those are the kind of things that are causing me to stumble and not feel the entire grace of God upon my life. I use to ask why things happened to me because I felt like I was good person. But now it has just hit me, it happens because I harbor disdain and hate in my heart.

I truly pray that God will release me from all of these things during my time of consecration. I do know that I am still blessed though no matter what is going on and that these things will only allow me to grow stronger.

Fasting

Hey, everyone. I guess I should introduce myself first. I am a 34 year old, mother of two, who strives for something different everyday it seems. I am seeking change in my overall life. Change with relationships, change in finaces, change in my walk with God, change in my apperance, change in the way I am rearing my two boys, etc. As you can see I am seeking major change in my life. This blog is for me. I needed a place where I could come and release without fearing backlash from anyone else. Most of my friends and family will probably never see this blog so I feel somewhat safe here.

I will blog about many different things that happen in my life. So from day to day nothing may seem related to each other. Just seeking a safe place to talk and possible get advice from individuals who know nothing about me or what has happened in my life or what will happen in the future.

For starters, today marks the first day of my fast. My pastor advised us not to tell anyone that we were fasting so that we could continue to be focused on the reason and not on others thinking we are doing something noble. He says that we do not want others to show think we need to be treated gingerly during this time.

This is an individual pursuit for wanting to come closer to God. For God to reveal some amazing things in my life. For some major things to happen in my life. I am not fasting totally from food, but I am leaning more towards what you would traditionally call "Daniel's Fast." I will eat no meat, bread products, or pastas and very little dairy (milk, yogurt, egg whites) for at least the first 10 days. Then I will slowly introduce chicken, fish and some other types of dairy, whole grain pastas and wheat bread. I did this last year and ended up losing about 25 pounds overthe 21 days. I do plan to continue this plan after the 21 days if God gives me the strength to.

I actually need to lose about 150 pounds so the weight loss will do me some good. Along with this fast I will exercise and read the bible daily. I believe that God can move in my life. I just need to stay encouraged and continue to glorify Him in everything that I do.