Well, I thought I would post another blog. I have done well on the fast and am now in the middle of day four. I am not fasting everything, but I am being very restricted. For the first three days it seemed a little hard. I felt somewhat tired and week, but today for some reason, I feel sort of rejuvenated. I got up this morning feel quite well. I was so tired the last few days that I went to bed without even eating.
I need to look at my word more though and truly concentrate on feeling the power of God in my life. I so want to grow closer to Him and be able to fully rely on His power to heal me of everything that taints my life right now. I also am hoping that during this fast, God will give me the ability to forgive my ex-husband. Now don't get me wrong, I am over him, but his evil ways still get me riled up every now and again. I do not like the way it leaves me feeling. I figure if I can learn to forgive him then my life will flow much better.
Right now those are the kind of things that are causing me to stumble and not feel the entire grace of God upon my life. I use to ask why things happened to me because I felt like I was good person. But now it has just hit me, it happens because I harbor disdain and hate in my heart.
I truly pray that God will release me from all of these things during my time of consecration. I do know that I am still blessed though no matter what is going on and that these things will only allow me to grow stronger.
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